不爱，也是一种爱

人总是会变，关系也是，爱更加不用说。就算是你最要好的姐妹那又如何。人总算自私，为了要达到目的而不折手段自自然然就变成了理所当然，所谓‘人心难测’。 那爱呢？爱只是人生里的某个阶段。眷恋，撕裂，遗憾，逃避，自然就变成人生里的某部分。爱情里最残忍的或许不是遗憾而是否认。每一段爱情里也许会有遗憾，但你能肯定对方也有着该遗憾吗？若他也有该遗憾，这段爱情还能挽救吗？脑里曾浮现该类似的问题，就算心里已有答案，但仍让放不下。在失去后才懂得珍惜，懂得对方是最重要，却在这时候发现我们的距离越来越远，就甚至连朋友都做不成。付出的感情不一定能得到回报，但至少留下深刻的回忆。有时想起，心里也有一丝丝的甜蜜，甜蜜里却带着一阵阵剧痛，也许这就叫‘遗憾’。比你活得更美好，更快乐，更幸福，是我唯一和最后能为你做的事，让你不会为我们这段爱情感到内疚，好好地活下去，甚至活得更开心。每一段爱情不一定都会有美好的结局，但只要双方都能活得开心，付出也是值得。虽然没有你的日子有点难熬，但只要你快乐，什么都是值得的。为对方付出也是一种福气。以前我一直认为一段爱情是要双方的付出，体谅，关爱，但有时不爱，也是一种爱。

M.C

HOT.

Cute huh? Quite hot actually.

But when she acted in this '' table of glory'' drama.....she is so damn cool weih! Her character is freaking cool!!!! =)

Hope it lasts

Tired of always changing my mind? doubt so, it'll be so boring! XP
anyway, hope this particular one lasts.


M.N. =)

第一次爱上的人…初恋？

好吧，看来我也只好分享一下了=.=

“我超级想念金桢勋的～～！！！”

很久都没有听到他的消息，没有他的近期照片，没有他的近期作品…
他跑去服兵役了，听说要三年那么长～～～。这感觉很恐怖，已经很想念他了 = (

看看他演的剧吧，尤其是「宫」。我不知道该怎么说…他真的很特别。
对你所爱的人的期待，应该不是其他什么那些有的没的，而是他会永远快乐幸福吧。
所以，祝他永远快乐！ ＝D

M.N. =)

Me again?

haha...why always i update one ah?

not fair

not fair

not fair

......

......

BY
B

CUTEZ.........PUPPY~~~~

FOR YOU.....

Good morning =D

Blogging at 8.38 a.m. is definitely abnormal for me but i just want to write a few words for one reason.

What reason?

The reason to beg God not to let my dream that i dreamt this morning come true.

Please. I am begging You. Please do not let my dream this morning come true. Let it be a dream, forever and ever. It not becoming a reality will just make me more happy. Seriously. Please. I woke up this morning and found out that my heart was so so painful until i realised the dream i dreamt was so damn scary if it came true. I beg You for this once, please do not let it come true. I don't want to see it.

By
B

Its been long.

Its definitely been a long time since i updated this blog because i had been busy with my life recently and now, i had come to a stable situation. Things, however, are started to turn worse but my 100% faith in it brings me back on track. I need to lose weight, thats one thing for sure, i need to focus on what am i doing, trying to save a well which is drying out of water. I need that well badly cause i seriously, with all my heart and soul, i love it. I do. Its going to dry up and i, need to save it with whatever i can do. Just to let you know, i am 100% commited and i will, definitely, save that well. Villagers had been trying to demolish that well by legal actions and even some, hit me hard, using dirty ways to own that well. I am deeply sad, can't even sleep, just because i was thinking on how to save that well.

By
B

背.弃

没改变
什么也没变
却坚持在离开的背影
用钢笔
重重地画下句点。
不许自己哭
更不许自己回头
时间滴答过了
怎能轻易忘掉

口袋里不再珍藏的
路口也不再竖立的
是你遗留的记号
迷路又何妨
走向的
不再是相同的地方

那瞬间的改变已成了永远
或许
幻觉早不该再重现

M.N.

《一下下》

最后一班悬浮火车
满载悬在空气中的不舍
我们却像陌路旅客
在月台分开站着毫无牵扯


现在的我能说甚么
徘徊你们之间的流浪者
说决定心是给你的
却要你给我留下来的许可

我只想再哭一下下
把记忆彻底地分化
等哭完我就会回家
眼泪我会替自己擦


我只想再哭(默哀)一下下
假如你不反对的话
以后我不会再牵挂
可知我有多努力啊
只有这办法才 不再想他

我希望你是谅解
我的感动过的痕迹很难割舍
一颗心就要爱你了
暂停一下并不算出尔反尔

M.C

爱过了，伤过了，痛过了，然而才明白一切，原来自己是个爱情傻瓜！

回想这半年来，幸福总是那么的遥不可及！记忆总是那么的凄凉无助！许多个夜晚，许多个午夜梦回的时候，我躲在黑暗里思念你，相思煎熬着侵蚀着我的身体，长夜空虚使我怀念往昔的你，怀念在我心中那一个情深似海的故事，思念你永远没有停止的那一天，直到我疲倦的睡去.......漆黑一片，四周一切是别样的静，唯有的就是我悄然的哭泣声。我忍住不哭，可双眼已经模糊，我很无助很孤独........寂寞和孤独慢慢蚕食我的灵魂和躯体，只因为没有你倾听我的诉说........爱情永远是经久不衰的热门话题，在唯美纯朴的爱情故事中，“浪漫”永远是大多数人所憧憬和幻想的。在爱情世界里是两人个人的天堂，彼此相互关爱、疼爱、呵护所让对方产生的感觉那就是幸福，而这种幸福就是“浪漫爱情”的体现，成功的爱情有甜蜜和幸福、失败的爱情有痛苦和折磨，俗话说爱与被爱都是一种幸福；爱情在人们心里是多么的神圣而又神秘的的东西,我们常常向往着得到爱,真爱.一味的去追求自己所爱,却忽落自己所能承受将要发生的惨剧!多少个无人的夜晚，自己一个人偷偷的哭泣，却不敢放声的大哭。我的生活，是一团混乱，维持单身感觉茫然，喜不喜欢习不习惯?我总是说不出个答案，一个人来又一个人往，怎么让你流连忘返?就如我不能轻易割舍和你那份情。我有的时候总是在想，如果没有忧郁没有音乐没有哭泣的麻醉，剩下的日子我真的不知还能不能度过?


M.C

晴天的眼泪

从前有一个女孩,她喜欢上了一个男孩。那一个男孩是很活泼的那一种，一直都拥有很多的朋友。他也很爱玩，所以一直也都有女生喜欢他。那女孩一直不知道该怎么认识他，所以只能够默默的喜欢着他。直到有一天她知道了她有个朋友认识那男孩。于是，她就要她朋友把他介绍让她认识。她朋友知道她喜欢那男孩后，就对她说你知道吗?那个男孩他很花心啊！听说她跟之前那个女朋友不到几天就散了。女孩听不下朋友的话，只说：我只是想认识他而已啦！别想太多啦～～～于是她朋友才将她介绍给男孩认识。那一天他们一起出去玩，女孩完全被男孩吸引住了。回家后，女孩发现自己越来越喜欢他了。女孩回家不久就接到了一通电话。是男孩打来的,男孩问她觉得今天好玩吗？女孩接到男孩的电话很高兴，男孩约她下一次再一起出去玩。女孩很快就答应了。再第二次出去玩的时候，男孩就向女孩告白了。女孩很高兴，就在那一天要回家时跟男孩说：“你等下打电话给我我再跟你说，”于是就在女孩回家不久后接到了男孩的电话。在电话中女孩答应了男孩的要求当了她的女朋友女孩是第一次谈恋爱所以她很用心的经营着他们之间的感情，她总是无时无刻的在想男孩；想着如何让男孩感到惊喜；如何让他快乐……可男孩只是将女孩当作是很普通的一个女朋友。所以在交往不到一个星期时男孩已经开始对女孩冷淡，不再对她呵护备至了。女孩也感觉到了，她警觉的开始在想：男孩是不是不爱她了？她很害怕，因为对她来说男孩是她现在的一切。她害怕会失去他，于是她开始想着要如何才能让男孩在乎自己？她更加的努力—为了男孩学煮菜；学做家事，为了男孩她将所有她从不曾做的事都学了起来。
可是呢？男孩却没有因此回头。她的嘘寒问暖变成了罗嗦；对他的在乎变成了压力，就在他们交往第二个月时男孩提出了分手。女孩在男孩面前是那样的镇定，说：是吗？嗯，我知道了。
男孩转身就走了只留下一句：以后我们还是朋友！
女孩勇敢的回到家。一直到回到自己房间才哭出来。她不懂她哪里做错了？为什么男孩不爱她了？她在房间想了很久之后决定—再过不久是男孩的生日，她要在那一天挽回男孩的心。于是，她开始计划……那一天终于来到了。她期待了，好久～～～
就在她要到那男孩家去帮他庆生时—在路上遇到了一辆失控的货车。就这样，她就这样消失在这个世界。那个男孩在不久后接到了女孩朋友的电话，他赶到现场。只见女孩怀里抱着一个东西，他走近拿起来看：那是一个包装的很美的礼物盒.外面写着给晴天!
于是,男孩拆开来看.
里面有一本日记跟一瓶香水以及一封信,日记里是女孩从喜欢男孩开始,将她每天的心情写下来.而信里写着：晴天,今天是你的生日.送你一瓶香水，这瓶香水是晴天.是我觉得那味道很有晴天的感觉.所以才买的.祝你生日快乐!还有那一本日记,是我从好久好久以前喜欢你开始写的.希望你能明白:我真的很爱你。
清晰的笔迹滴上了,一滴滴的泪珠.就在那一刻男孩明白了-原来他对女孩是有着深深的爱的，只是他忽略了那一份感觉。他悲伤的抱住女孩，大声的喊着：我爱你！你不要死！我不要你死！你还没有接受我全部的爱呢……你不是说要跟我在一起的吗？起来啊～～～那一刻天空突然下起了雨—也许那是晴天的眼泪吧？

M.C

记得

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口

m.n.

SOMETHING SAD ABOUT ME

WHEN I THINK I GOT EVERYTHING, GOD JUST WANTS TO TAKE IT BACK FROM ME. DESPITE ALL THE EFFORT, HARDWORK AND TIME I SPENT ON IT, I STILL FAIL TO ACHIEVE IT AND NOW, I HAVE NOTHING LEFT.

BY
B

1 more week till exams.

One more week till exams arrived.

And let me tell you how many percent i have completed my studies.

Bio-20%.
Chemistry-30%
Physcis-0%
English-50%
BM-70%
Chinese-60%
Sejarah-0%
Add maths-80%
Maths-60%
Moral-0%

i have only one week left. What do u expect me to do??

When everytime i want to study, i will sure either no mood or my mind will linger around at MARS when i am studying. I think most of the students are 90% ready for the exams and this term, i dun think i will excel. trust me.

Tired of studying,

Goodbye~!

I've said goodbye, so why weren't you leaving?
In short:

ITS KILLLIN ME.

THOUGHT OF IT.

TOOK THE ACTIONS.

GOT THE HORRIFYING RESULTS.

REGRETTED ABOUT THE STUPID-ME.

NOW, I GOT THE TRUTH.

READY TO DO WHAT IS NECCESSARY AFTER SCHOOL REOPENS, TOMORROW.

SHOULD I SLOWLY KILL IT OR JUST BLAST A BOMB RIGHT AWAY?

BY
B

I THINK I SHOULD SLOWLY KILL IT. BOMBING WILL BE JUST TOO CRUEL.

IS HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF?

No idea.

I don't know!

Its just creeps out from my mind when i think too much!!!

Geeesh.....i hate to think but at the same time, i really LOVE to think.

Anyway, i think i still got a little crush on Beyonce.

Pause! Beyonce symbolises one girl. Not the real Beyonce. DUH!!!

Again, i dun know. When i think about it,i think still got a little but its disappearing. YEAH!!! XP

HMMMMM.....

Running away from problems in life does not solve the solution. I don't do that.

I face it.

Anyway, life is actually quite easy and simple. Many thinks its hard but its not. For me, there is only one thing which is hard in life.

LOVE.

By
B

The door is closing.
And with a big "bang!" ,
it's not gonna open anymore.

M.N. (forgive me, i'm juz bored XP)

TILL DEATH DO US APART.

Sounds dramatic huh??

Indeed.

Love is wonderful thing but many ppl have different perspective on it. Some says it sweet, some says its hurtful. For me? Its something which will connect ppl from heart to heart, true love, till death do us apart.

Many are scared to fall in love, having the fear that they will lose focus on other daily routines. As a matter of fact, its true. But one have to have a really strong inner-self to control their mind. Doing the right thing at the right time at the right place is all fated. Decisions are made and you can't always make the right one. If that happens, the world cant be a sphere anymore.

Love failure is what i call myself. People who fail to get the person who they loved is call love failure and that is me. I am not desperate for a girlfriend actually. I just want someone where i can tell her I LOVE YOU every night,a girl where i can hug, i can hold her hand on the streets and share the love in me with that special one. I won't expect much from her. I just want her to love me. That's all i ask.

Besides, what i want is true love. Not a forceful one.

I trust fate and yet again, till death do us apart.

BY
B

...

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. Love is best seen as devotion and action, not an emotion. Love is not exclusively based on how we feel. Certainly our emotions are involved, but they cannot be our only criteria for love. True devotion will always lead to action—true love.

M.C

what's love???

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over....I remember the first day when i saw him in class. I just looked at him and was impressed by his personality....... days passed........... and just a hello hi sort of conversation continued. I sent him a message and asked him out. He asked me who am i. Then we used to send forwarded messages to each other. Daily i used to look at his pics for hours. I dont know why i used to look but i felt something for him. Then we started chatting and there was a sort of excitement. We even started talking on phones. The whole day i used to wait for the night so that we can chat. we became friends but my feelings for him grew more and more as the time passed. Actually, there is no remedy for love but to love more. Whenever I meet him.... I feel the same charm as I felt on the first day. I want to be with him forever n ever n ever............!

M.C

I CRIED

BY
B

OOHH YEAAHHH!!!

BY
B

HMMMMMM........

Life is so bored.

Seriously.

I just cannot think of what to do.

I want to study but no mood. lazy. Prefer to watch tv and hang out.

Am i changing recently? I don't think so. I hope not.

I AM worried about my exams and i will work hard for it.

But still, there is a little sting here and there. When i got nothing to do, i think.
Thats the only way i can keep my mind fresh and alert at all times. But the one thing bad about thinking is i think too much. YES. TOO TOO much.

Not that dirty stuffs lar...as in i think about my frens and my life. Think about plans but when i think too long, a fact always come in mind which i cannot say.THIS fact makes me sad and emo all the time and i will try to make my strong enough, just to make my way thru my life, IF and only if this fact came through.

The things i see in school clearly supports this fact and even yesterday, the incidentS i see supports the fact. I know there is a word call DENIAL but fate is fate.. I can see the that the thing i want is going directly opposite of my wish. Going to a point where it will seriously plunge an arrow through my heart if this little fact came through. I dunno what to say nor i dunno what to do. Its just a really bad pain when i come to think of this fact. So, let fate decide.

BY
B

失落沙洲

歌名：失落沙洲
歌手：徐佳莹 ^.^

又来到这个港口 没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟 寻找失落的沙洲
随时间的海浪漂流 我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落想念的 还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来 只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在 留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来 只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白 还有谁能来教我爱



又回到这个尽头 我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾 没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来 只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在 留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来 只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白 还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来 只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我 不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来 只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖 还有谁能教我勇敢
除了你之外的空白 还有谁能来教我爱

M.N.

Loneliness

Lying there Awake

Wishing you could turn back the hands of time

Back to where you could relive a day that went wrong

Wishing things you said

You could take back

You hear someone say

I hate you!

Leave me alone!

Stop talking to me!

I dont care

Wishing you could go somewhere

Theres someplace you can go to be along

Alone

Loneliness is my best friend

Loneliness loves me

Loneliness is always there for me

No one cares

No one believes in me

No one wants me

Loneliness is my lover

Loneliness is my favorite past time

In bed alone

Wishing someone could talk to me

Hope someone comes along

And takes me away

But loneliness is my protector

It wont let me go

Even if someone tries

It takes me further

No one tries

No one cares

No ones there

I yell and scream for help

No ones there

I cry and whimper

No ones there

Why do I even try?

When no ones there to help

For I wish to I could escape

From the hands of loneliness

Gone

The garden gate still swings the same,
The garden path stills winds its way,
Nothing's changed in the trees and the flowers,
Since the day you went away.

The door still opens and closes
And doesn't care that you're gone,
The curtains still open gladly
And the windows, to let in the sun

The carpets still are lying,
And the three- piece suite's in place,
And the mirror in the hallway's said nothing,
Now it does not reflect your face

The fire still burns brightly,
And the piano is still in tune,
And the electric bulb when switched on,
Still starkly lights the room

The newspaper boy still turns up
And the newspaper it does to,
But he no longer posts that glossy magazine,
That he used to bring for you

And the chilled pints of milk,
Safe in the icy packages printed blue,
Have never asked why now they were bought for one,
When once they were bought for two.

The flowers in the garden border,
Still lean and tremble and sway,
And have long since forgiven you,
For cutting some of them away

And the bedroom clock ticks loudly on,
Marking each passing hour,
And the bathroom cabinet keeps secret its memories,
Of watching you take a shower

No, nothing's changed since you went,
The wardrobe doesn't miss your clothes
And there's no sign of my memories of you,
I've hidden all of those

And you won't come again,
And we won't care that you do not,
Me, my house and garden,
Well survive with what we've got

Or at least I thought it was so,
Until last night through the open door,
I heard my beds soft sheets crying quietly,
Because you were no more

M.C

A friend.

A friend, a friend
I have never known
A friend, a friend
That has shown
A doorway to light
A passage of hope
A piece of forever
And with this I cope
A friend, a friend
I will always hold dear
A friend, a friend
Who holds back my fear
Of all the rage
Of all the hurt
Of all the words
That are so curt
A friend, a friend
A friend indeed
He is my friend
And he will help me in need


BY
B

15 Malaysia~ ^-^

M.N. =)

Lonely I Am

Lonely are the nights
Lonely are the days
Lonely am I, in so many ways

Lonely are the seasons
Lonely are the years
So lonely am I, that it brings tears.

Lonely is this place
Lonely is my life
Lonely am I, that I reach for a knife

Lonely is this court room
Lonely is my sentence
So lonely am I that I ask for repentance.

HELOO

Hey...just drop by to make my first post....hihi...and hellooo to everyone..XD